Wednesday

Do you ever have those days where you feel so happy and excited and beaming? And everybody around you is in a great mood, too? And then suddenly all of these little pesky things of bad and sad news come sailing at you, dampening the joyous spirits of the lovely spring day?

Well, I'm having one of those days. :(
I want to cry sometimes, but it's such a beautiful day and there's so much to be happy for. It's hard to be happy though when you have all of these upsetting and frustrating things to deal with.


Not related to the reasons why I'm not very happy above, but still something that is disappointing to me. It's not a call of desperation, it's kind of more of a reminder to the mothers (and soon-to-be-mothers) and cousins of mine who might read this blog of what it's like to be 17 and a senior again.
I'm a senior. And I know, I know, prom really isn't that important when it comes to the big picture, but seriously, haha, older people always say "try telling that to a 17 year old." It's like telling a 5 year old that candy isn't good for you. Haha. Yeah, so about prom... I'm not going to be asked out, I discovered. I kind of already knew that, though. I'm practically invisible at my school and all of the guys at church already have dates or something. I wasn't really expecting anything, but I was really hoping I could have one more date before I start college this fall at Clarke. I don't feel "unspecial", and I don't question if it's something about my personality people don't like (though it's a challenge to make sure that I do not tell myself I'm unattractive, or I'm not interesting, I'm a loser, etc), I mostly just feel a bit let down.
A friend from church however told me I can come with her group of girlfriends to my school's prom, so at least I can wear the dress that I got. :) I was getting nervous that I might have bought the gorgeous dress for nothing.

Pretty much, unless some LDS guy comes to Dubuque to go to Loras or Clarke or UD, I'm going to be just about dateless for a good 4 or 5 years, depending on how long it takes to get my bachelors in Music Ed at Clarke. Sure, I'll still be home when all of these young men come home from their missions (gah!!! I'll still be here!!), but how many do you think will stay in Dubuque for very long?
Bleh. I just want some fun dates. More like, I want some guys who I can go on fun dates with. But there's nobody here. That's very available/dateable, anyway.

This is stupid.